I feel I was in an undertow phase all of last week lol. Because too much had happened too fast. It wasn't my system pulling back as such... but just wanting to go in this bubble of numbing myself (which is my default mechanism) until I felt ready enough to come out.
This week I can feel the coming out slowly hahaha. Back to myself...more steady and more grounded into my new self than ever!
Rest is restoration, but when I read "numbing myself," I do feel the tug of the undertow. But here's the thing - you took some time for yourself, and now you are swimming back out to grab the next wave.
Yeah I can definitely feel grabbing the next wave this week! And I think for the first time I'm 100% allowing myself to not force anything and just be you know? The body knows what the body knows. I just have to surrender.
I love the word surrender - so many people think it's doing nothing, but surrender is a verb, it is choosing to release the twin ropes of when and how something manifests, and instead trusting that you've tilled the soil, fertilized, watered and that the seeds you've planted will blossom and bloom in the time and space that is in your highest and best.
I feel I was in an undertow phase all of last week lol. Because too much had happened too fast. It wasn't my system pulling back as such... but just wanting to go in this bubble of numbing myself (which is my default mechanism) until I felt ready enough to come out.
This week I can feel the coming out slowly hahaha. Back to myself...more steady and more grounded into my new self than ever!
Rest is restoration, but when I read "numbing myself," I do feel the tug of the undertow. But here's the thing - you took some time for yourself, and now you are swimming back out to grab the next wave.
Yeah I can definitely feel grabbing the next wave this week! And I think for the first time I'm 100% allowing myself to not force anything and just be you know? The body knows what the body knows. I just have to surrender.
I love the word surrender - so many people think it's doing nothing, but surrender is a verb, it is choosing to release the twin ropes of when and how something manifests, and instead trusting that you've tilled the soil, fertilized, watered and that the seeds you've planted will blossom and bloom in the time and space that is in your highest and best.
More than surrender, I love the Tamil word for it...saranaagadhi. Every time I utter it something settles into me you know?